The programming runs deep. That little voice in my head that says, “Do more. You are/this is not enough.”
But what if that little voice is wrong? I mean, I know it’s wrong. But what if this particular belief of mine is completely unnecessary and substantially wrong?
I have been trying for years (truth) to build a YouTube channel and/or a podcast. I’ve started with great excitement, only to lose momentum just a few episodes later.
It’s not that I don’t want to build those channels, there’s just not enough time in the day. I work a day job, I have an angel business, I nurture deep friendships and an amazing intimate partnership. I even occasionally clean my apartment. And I write.
The minute I get a little breathing room, the creativity just pours out of me. But somewhere along the way, I must have decided that blogging was not enough. Everybody likes to listen these days–to view and to listen.
But what if that’s true and it’s still okay for me to blog? What if blogging is a perfectly valid and adequate choice? Because I can’t not write. Writing is who I am.
Tonight is a good example. It’s spring break. Also eclipse season. And my partner is away for three weeks with her wife. (Hey poly peeps!) I’m tired and I’m blue and I’ve spent a zillion hours today rebuilding my website.
And this is the fifth blog post I’ve written today.
What if this is all I need to do? At least until I retire from the day job and finally get past the third episode of my podcast.
I gotta ask you. What would you be doing if you knew it was enough?
